|Journal: My love letter |
-------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual
I realized today I have to let you go. It's a slow kind of ache, the kind the body numbs in order to go through with your words.
I've been grasping at the essence of you, looking to connect, gravitating towards you and your shiny new gem and as you oscillate slowly I catch a glimpse of rays, some light into my dark patch of earth.
The nourishment I once provided is no longer needed, your strength is vast and blinding.
I kind of want to fade away, maybe they'll be growth for me as well, other kindred spirits that will elevate. There is loss and hope and deep regret. But in life there are no certainties, no constants, ever changing is the world and so must we.
I am a your soft reminder, a one dimensional safety net and... I excelled at it like a
a blind lover?
a lonely shape?
I proud blanket relished in my purpose, but now it's hard not to be direct. There isn't time to hide but was I ever one to hold back?
I love as fiercely as I hate but the gods had the last laugh in the end. Out of pride and fierceness I was molded and shaped, you blew your desires into me and my heart was caged. I am your creation, of fear and manic love I was birthed. I have no sense of self.
I close my eyes and wish for strong winds,
a gust or gale.
I close my eyes and stand witness to change in the air
a lighting bolt?
please something to signal the end.
I want to honor the passing,
revere in the growth and change.
"You are beautiful" were the last words I said as the winds pick up and specks of my essence ride the wind away.
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