--Elite Writer Alias: nomad knight Name: Troubadour Elethuria ASL: wind swept fields of gold Website:[ Education ] Days Away: 2329 Life Story: A quest for truth [ Ignore User ]
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Journal: is this love? -------------------------------------------
Mood: Straightening things out...
So i'm studying abroad in Florence and way back on the first night here I was hanging out at this Irish bar. There were a lot of attractive girls dressed up to catch a man's eye. At one point I turned around and my eyes came upon a girl who had just entered. My reaction was like "woa..." She was dressed very conservatively and seemed mostly ignored by the guys there...but I was instantly drawn to her.
I've been spending time with her and my feelings for her while we were in Rome with a bunch of other students. Then when we were in venice I realized how powerful and deep my affection for her really was. Venice, city of romance, of all places. I didn't want to feel like this but I can't help it. I'm overwhelmed and when I look into her eyes I am profoundly stirred.
I confessed my affection for her (very romantic and poetic like in person) but she met someone during her visit to Ireland over spring break. So we are friends and i'm trying so very hard to make my feelings platonic...but they are so utterly powerful. The effect she has on me goes against my reason and better judgement but I can't help but be entranced by her. I thought I was immune to this sort of thing. I just saw her walk into the room as i write this and I feel this anxious warmth in my heart. The more I learn about her the more i'm attracted to her.
I don't know if this is "love." after all "love" is just noises and scribbles used to describe a wide and changing range of emotions and connections. However...I must admit I'm terrified of that word "love." I've been in love before and...i'm scared, especially since this girl doesn't have romantic affection for me...or at least to much current knowledge. However the only thing I could compare these incredible emotions to is that which i felt for the girl I fell in love with in the past. I don't want to say I "love" this girl...but i'm not sure how long I can keep denying that is what i feel. Honestly, though I try not to focus on it, I think one could legitimately say I've fallen in love with this girl. Oh the agony is both terrible and wonderful at the same time.
Thank you for commenting on "Practicing with a Pawn". I found your words to be thoughtful and most considerate. I am trying to move on ... and the pain is gradually subsiding but I still really have my moments.
Haha, yeah I guess you wouldn't have to wash away his scent if it wasn't a him lolz but I'm glad you enjoyed and related to "Clean Out Your Heart." It's always nice to know I'm not the only one doing a little cleaning these days. Also I just read the entry about your father. I'm so sorry. I don't really guess there's much an outsider can say to someone going through such a hard time, but I hope you and your family make it through okay.
Evening nomad knight. Thanks for the comments on He cometh…
I use exclamations points or marks as I understand it, to emphasize the words or rather the thought conveyed because I deem the importance of the situation I want to make, very important.
When I use more than one after the other the importance is thus amplified. It is one of those characteristic behavioral things I guess. I am not much on the flow but what is said. But yes – I do get your point! I am not English speaking and that could also be a handicap. English is my second language. Glad you reacted. My sympathy on the loss of your father. Regards. Joachim
Thank you for the comment I got on A Warriors Love, and I honestly did not know that it could not be commented, and find that a bit strange!
I am glad you liked it, and I appreciate that you bothered putting down some letters in a pm for me :)
It was not based on any particular story or myth, however, I was a bit influeced by the tendency in many old divine myths, where love affect people to make choices that might neither be wise nor good, and that eventuelly lead to their downfall.
I love that type of poems myself, but I dont always manage to find the mood to write one.. :)