-------------------------------------------Mood: The Usual
last night was pretty nice. it snowed.
we came out of the movie theater, and didn't expect all that stuff to be falling. and although we could barely see on the way home, and the roads were probably really dangerous, we just laughed.
it was great.
i don't know lately. i'm all effed. i told someone that i love something very important last night. all i wanted to hear was 'i love you.' or 'you're not crazy' or an even 'i care about you don't do that'...but i got nothing. no response. i have to admit that i was a little shocked and a bit hurt. it seems like i don't have any friends that care. derrick, i don't know, that has it's ups and downs and complications. i just don't want him to end up like kevin was to me.
i just feel like everything i say doesn't make a difference; no one's listening.
but you don't listen.
funny how i had such a good night with people i care about just last night, and now i feel like this. i swear i'm mentally ill or something, jeez.
my eyes and head hurt.
that was my update. enjoy it or die.<3
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