sweetandohsome

I�d like you to remember me as I was before I fell. I�d like you to try and remember my smiles and perhaps the way I brightened your day. I�d like to think I might�ve once did that. Please, forgive me for my failings. I never meant to bring this down. I never meant for things to end this way. Forgive me again, for I don�t know what to do any longer. However, I�ve got to do what I can to heal the damage that�s been done to me and to myself. Remember that I care, even as I leave. I just don�t have anything to give anymore. I won�t say I�ll never come back, but I�ll try to stay away long enough to heal the damage I�ve done. This is my farewell.

And these are my thank you�s.

To Carlos-
Will you read this? Probably not. Will I continue to talk to you? Perhaps. ES, after all, is not our only form of contact. Yet, still, I find myself thinking our conversations will grow less and less. Still, thank you. For the life I have--as unsteady as I�ve made it. Thank you for making me smile when nobody else could. Thank you for making me think. Thank you for giving me a light in the world as everything went dark. Something to cling to. A friend to confide in. A dream to dream about. Time will heal the past, I hope. Futures are bright. And someday, I hope that you�ll look back and my memory will tug a fond smile across your lips.

To Elias-
You were there for me. You were there for many people. I see you as a genuinely good person, and I don�t hope to see our conversations end. Not just because you make me smile, but because I feel close to you. I�d say more, but most was said today anyway.

To Daniel-
I still find it hard to believe I was lucky enough to meet you. I understand that it�s hard for you to believe me now. But�believe it or not, you are handsome and charming and clever and witty and so darn sweet. Remember what you promised me. I have faith in you, my dearest friend. Thank you for being there for me. I�m sorry I wasn�t there for you.

To Joel-
You�re right. I�m stuck with you. I won�t say you�re my best friend�or even the one that knows the most about me. But as far as good times go, you can always make me laugh. Always. It doesn�t matter how pissed I am at you (for whatever reason that we�ll both forget), you brighten my world. Prince of Nightmares? Hardly. Brother? Truly. I never want to have to forget you, because that would be leaving behind a lot of happiness.

To Enrique-
God, you were my first (and have yet to be replaced) best friend. I don�t know if I ever meant anything to you, but I think I did. I think I do. You�re simple and relaxed, and I apologize for all the hell I raised for you. You�ve put up with a lot of me. Please�try to remember me fondly.

To Ben-
Not sure if I should even post this here, since you�re never on, but I�m going to anyway. Why? Because I want to. We�ve had some�pretty great conversations. And�I miss that. But I don�t really feel like we�re growing apart�just talking less. And�I know you�d tell me if we had a problem, so I�m good. We�re good. And, I hope to catch you this summer.

To Tisuna-
You�ve been great. You�re hard-working and I really have enjoyed talking with you. Like, you seem to just drive people. Drive them to succeed. I really admire that.

James (Goggles)-
We did grow apart, but, y�know, if you ever need me, I think you know how to find me. I still feel close to you, and you were the first person to really stop and look at me. To pay attention to what I had to say, and notice that I didn�t say half of what I could have said. Thank you for that.

Sai-Bells-
You�ve been really fun to be around, and I�ll still be just a call away if you ever need me. I want everything to work out for you, and I pray that life brings you many, many more smiles. Hang in there.

Tom (Hermes)-
We�ll still talk, I hope. It really makes my day to get a phonecall from you. Most times, I call people. Or ask them to call. You call just for company, and that makes me feel like a friend. So thank you.

Constance-
You are the sweetest girl. I want happiness for you. Oodles and oodles of it. You�re artistic and beautiful, and you deserve greatness.

Jorge-
I don�t know where you disappeared to, but for a brief time, I think we got pretty close. You�re a pretty awesome dude. Take care of yourself.

Emily (Twinbee)-
There�s something about you that I always wanted to impress. I liked you..immediately, if I remember correctly. Thanks for the smiles and the friendship, though faded. I�m sorry I ever let you down, and may the light of many rainbows glorify your life. You deserve happiness.

Elizabeth (Pops)-
Thank you for being there for me (or at least, trying). Thank you for listening to my rambles and rants. Thank you for all the laughs and the shoe-tying lessons. If you hear from batman, tell him to give me a call. He�s not dead! I don�t care what you say! -crazy sobs- Take care, all right? And, you know how to find me if you need me.

Ninjai-
Stuff happened to throw things out of the loop. We�re not really friends anymore, sadly. And you�re AWOL. However, I miss you. Wherever you are, I wish you well.

Sir Ion-
I�m still jealous of your tree. Though you probably have forgotten what I�m talking about. Thank you for the texts, calls, and chats. You�ve been a great friend.

Amber (Druecilla)-
It was great roleplaying with you over texts. Though I was horrible at it. It�s always fun to write. And it�s always fun to try new things. Take care of yourself.

Finnigan-
You�re the bawmb~li~bawmb. I�ll still see around, on facebook and the like. Thank you for trusting me with the bat cave. Don�t stir up too much trouble.

Skillet-
Thank you for the random conversations, and the interesting reads. I appreciate the chance to get to know you. All of you�yeah.

Ikolet-
Mi hija�take care of yourself.

Nikki-
Oh, I do plan to keep talking to you. You are probably one of the most interesting people I know, my darling Sunnyflower. You light up the world with your words. So caring. So sweet. Thank you for being there for me when I needed a friend. Thank you for talking to me even when I was being a nincompoop.

Urisen-
You�re an interesting guy. You seem to have a lot to say, and I regret that I never got the chance to work my way into a friendship. However, that�s probably for the best. One less person I annoyed. Hah. Take care all right?

Peppermint-
You�re beautiful. Inside and out. No matter what anyone says, you�re an intelligent, independent woman. I have faith in you. And, you know how to get a hold of me if you ever need to. Hopefully, I get my texting fixed soon.

Kor-Goat-
Yo. You�re freaking awesome. That�s really all I got to say about that.

Silversun-
Another faded friendship, but I think we are friends. I feel like you�re a brilliant girl who will go far in life. Thank you for the chats and laughs.

Renada-
I sparkling adore you to pieces. You have a habit of brightening my day every time I see you.

Preston (X-A-Lot)-
You are sparkling great. I look forward to my hugs everyday (whether I get them or not). You know you mean a lot to me, and I�ll always be your stalker�I mean, friend. If you ever need me, give me a ring. Until I get my texting fixed. Hopefully soon. Text anyway. I can see �em. Just not respond. Chin up.

Mr. Muffles-
You�re sweet. And smart. And�heck, I just adore you. May many blessings rain down on you.

Teddybear-
Thanks for the Mcfly video references and Pokechats. It�s been really fun talking with you and roleplaying with you.

Light-O (Jacoby)-
I hardly see you around, but I miss you. Thanks for putting up with my dramatics.

Kiwi Sushi-
God, I never see you. I do thank you though. Your nickname is still one of the most awesome I ever came up with.

Sheaky-
You are always a treat to talk to. Interesting, engaging. Not so much a jerk when you let people get to know you. Find lots of happiness in life.

Mango-
You�re hilarious. And fun. And�I freakin� adore you. Don�t be so harsh on the Americans. We�re not so bad. Ight? xD

Alexandre-
You are the best person I�ve ever known. It�s no wonder everyone loves you. I adore you for you. You never had to be anyone but you. Formalities, images�all unnecessary. You transcend us all, Al. Be blessed.

Oshacarrot-
You�re the best pyromaniac in all the Club. xD Rock on, dude. Rock on.

Bananas (Bayse)-
Thanks for sprucing up the chat rooms with your presence.

Luna-
It�s been a treat chatting with you, darling.

Bogeyman (Sinis)-
Lord knows you are pretty much amazing. You are as random as a pig in a New York City clothing mall. And I love it.

Jitter-
Thanks for remembering me when I thought you wouldn�t. You�re a fun guy.

Jacey-
I find you unbelievable. I mean that in a good way. You amaze me. Astound me. Amuse me. I haven�t known you long, but I like what I know. Keep on pushing.

If I forgot anyone, it�s not because I don�t love you, but because my mind is tired. I love you all. Take care. (And the same to length�just because it�s short�fingers got tired)

Everything works out in the end. If it�s not the end, it�s not over.