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Here i am writing out my feelings nothing but pain sorrow and hate i guess thats just the way life is it throws you out, casts you away i hate that you aren't really seeing what is right there in your face if you would look you would see you'll see that pain within me the feeling of dislike and of being unwanted lonely shattered and broken always waiting for my chance and having it crash in front of me i need a reason to live for all i have is me there is nothing you can say to make everything ok its what you did that is hurting you you can blame it on me but you know you did it i hate that i cant hurt you the way you hurt me when you left me with my miseary but you cant hurt me again cause i am gone but i am sitting here and i feel like i am a burden on the world like i am alone not needed its like i can't think of anything but my pain and i just want to end it do myself in its like i cant see anything and i am lost within me i am drowning in my sorrow choking on the pain killing me slowly but it all feels the same the smile that you think is so real if you looked past it you could see how i feel but you dont cause you wont understand what i am going through and you dont care cause i am not important to you im just another face in the crowd nothing special or diffrent but to me i have everything i am what i need you were my pain the dieses that is killing me the pain and the agnoy is you you are my anger my desprate plee for help you cant see your lies are strangling me and i am slipping quickly would you care if i died today? would you notice i was gone? but i know the answer but im hoping for a diffrent one take me away i dont want you to be with me i wanna get out out of the mold out to somewhere new but i cant do it i cant be free youre holding me down keeping me away from my possiblitys i know i am worth something but you make that hard to believe i hate that you make me hate myself but what can i do i cant change you but i wish i could nothing makes sense to me and what i did is killing me what i once loved i now hate but nothing is right nothing is good im left in the dark no sign of returning i am alone. |