This is a very timely write for me to read. Very timely indeed.
I struggle with addiction myself. One facet that i am the most ashamed of is that i continually drive away those friends and family that i care about the most. Addiction is a right bi.tch. It is interesting for me to read this invocation...to hear about the disease from the other side's perspective.
A cousin once told me that "you're a hard person to know, a hard person to love, but i'm stuck with you...and i lose sleep worrying about you. Whenever you aren't answering the phone i worry that you're dead. I call the county jail to see if you're there again."
It has been one year and ten days since i relapsed after 3 years, six months, and one day of dedicated sobriety. One year...and i have lost everything again already. Its a real serious struggle. I am doing my best to work through this...but i still have my slips...at times when i get lonely, or depressed.
I am waiting to go to treatment for my second time. It is a sixty day wait, so in the meantime i will go to meetings, pray, and write my way through this.
I am writing a collection of vignettes detailing my recent struggles since my relapse a year ago, but addiction is the struggle of a lifetime.
This is a moving peice, and one that i am immensely glad to have read. It gives me perspective.
It is not "Miscellaneous"....it is a prayer, and a moving one at that.
This was a really nice dedication, even though I get the sense you're a lot more religious then I choose to be but I can still see it from a parent/child point of view and it does really hurt to see someone you love addicted to something that doesn't give them real happiness anyway, and yea I guess the first thing that should come to mind when I read this would be a drug/alchol addiction and I'm willing to bet that's what it was but there are a lot of different kinds of addictions. sometimes it's hard to accept and though I'm not a parent I can understand loving someone and wanting to look past that but knowing that you really shouldn't and yet having to accept that there are some things that they're going to do and feel that you can't help them with or stop. yea addiction can ruin a lot of things, it's so funny in an ironic, bittersweet kinda way that I should be reading this now, a good friend of mine just died two days ago from an OD which probably wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't been doing all that [censored] for over 10yrs anyway. so yea nice write, I can definatly relate to this one. I don't think anyone should feel like they need drugs/alchol to make them happy. peace and luv, ~jess
This is a very nice dedication from a parent to a child. To know that your child is addicted to a drug that drags them down to the unknown. A parent that is aware enough to understand this is rare. We see our children at times how we want them to be, but do we really see them.
Addiction comes in many forms and it has no selective agenda. We as parents wish that our children will always want to tell us that they have a problem, but we have to realize that sometime is embarrassing to tell the parent that they have a problem. I like this a lot.
One small thing; last line last stanza... could read "beside you I stand. When read Aside you I stand it kind of give the reader a halt. Just a thought.
Have I misinterpreted? Is the speaker a parent, or, as it seems to me, God? I like the word “vacuum” in S1L4, though the rhythm of the line seems awkward. May I suggest, “as you vacantly stare from your vacuum”? Similarly, S2L1 would probably sound more natural as a contraction: “Don’t you know...” Overall, I like the ideas, the very gentle voice that one feels in reading of the poem, and your use of words beyond the mundane. fred