today he said "hi" to me. wow that feeling was crazy. i had butterflies in my tummy. i thought i was getting over him, but it's really hard. he has a very strong effect on me. i think that he is soo amazing to me until he igrones me. i know that he was just being friendly, i shouldn't think anything of it. if he changes i guess maybe i won't be so hung over. before he changed, he was always there for me. i never had to ask for anything simple as a hug; i got them w.o even asking for one, which made me feel really special. now i basically have to scream and act crazy to get his attention, which i know isn't right. when i get the attention, its feels as if he is holding back and doesn't want to be around me or be seen with me. but thats okay because one day i'll be over him and he is going to be trying to get with me. it'll be his lost. at that point he'll know how it feels to be ingorned. which consists of feeling like a piece of worthless crap, and being told you've changed when i wasn't the one that changed. he'll know how it feels to be hurt so much and you just want to be able to hold, hug, kiss, and love that special someone soo much.
but all he's told me is that i've changed.
wow. i haven't noticed. |
Submission Name: My Mind. It's Emotions.
