Description: another poem that wanted to come off my chest and onto paper....wrote this heck long ago but couldn't submit due to exams. well now that i've submitted it....do comment on it!
Some sin -------------------------------------------
Just hearing your name
Brings all the pain back again;
Seeing you makes me realise that
I have been fooled by my emotions again.
It just came in that all that you ever said was a lie-
I have dissociated to a thousand pieces?
Not knowing what to do now or what to think.
Self-mutilation-shameless thing to do
Tears roll down as blood rolls down with every blink!
Images stream in my head; I'm turning pages that
I've left unturned for long.
I stop at the last page-it reads:
"I never want to hear from you again. LEAVE ME ALONE"
No, this isn't the way it should be; I've numbed my mind
Of you before and it is still possible.
You had said: "you're the only guy I talk to"
Sh*t, I can't stop thinking about you it's impossible!
I'm walking towards the pub to drink away my sorrows.
I see the people staring at me.
I'm stumbling at every step
I'm trying to keep my eyes open as darkness tries to overtake me!
Drinking till I can drink no more
Don't know why between us it didn't work,
Why I couldn't score.
Walking back towards home totally drunk-
It's late at night and I'm wet due to the falling dew.
I wake up the next morning-it was useless drinking-cause I'm still thinking about you!
Well, I guess this is how my life shall remain;
And with you as a burden I shall stay alive.
When I cut myself-I sin. When I drink-I sin.
And with you as my biggest sin-this death like life I shall survive!