Just hearing your name
Brings all the pain back again;
Seeing you makes me realise that
I have been fooled by my emotions again.
It just came in that all that you ever said was a lie-
I have dissociated to a thousand pieces?
Not knowing what to do now or what to think.
Self-mutilation-shameless thing to do
Tears roll down as blood rolls down with every blink!
Images stream in my head; I'm turning pages that
I've left unturned for long.
I stop at the last page-it reads:
"I never want to hear from you again. LEAVE ME ALONE"
No, this isn't the way it should be; I've numbed my mind
Of you before and it is still possible.
You had said: "you're the only guy I talk to"
Sh*t, I can't stop thinking about you it's impossible!
I'm walking towards the pub to drink away my sorrows.
I see the people staring at me.
I'm stumbling at every step
I'm trying to keep my eyes open as darkness tries to overtake me!
Drinking till I can drink no more
Don't know why between us it didn't work,
Why I couldn't score.
Walking back towards home totally drunk-
It's late at night and I'm wet due to the falling dew.
I wake up the next morning-it was useless drinking-cause I'm still thinking about you!
Well, I guess this is how my life shall remain;
And with you as a burden I shall stay alive.
When I cut myself-I sin. When I drink-I sin.
And with you as my biggest sin-this death like life I shall survive!