How could I have been so wrong?

Why can I never do anything right?

Im torn between a life of tears,

And a life of hidden pain.



But both are one and the same it seems.

Its hard to have one with out the other.

I want to make him happy, want so hard to please him.

But it would appear, my heart does nothing but hope for dreams.



Dreams of what could be.

Dreams of happiness.

Dreams of a life with the one I love with my soul.

That I love with every broken, shattered piece of my heart.



But dreams will get me nowhere in this life of nightmares.

Ill never have happiness.

Never feel the warmth of his love.



The sun in my life will never shine again.

The moon will never rise.

Whats the point of such a life?

A life with no hope,

With not passion.



Thats just it.

Without hope, without passion, there IS no point.

No point...

No point..

Not even one.



I wish i could say, everything i've ever ment to...

But there where be no point.

All i wish to state,

Is i'm sorry,

I truely love you

and

Forgive me.