Description: this is just a release for me. i just felt like sitting down and "fighting" with myself about certain issues in my life. yall can comment if yall would like.
my thoughts about my issues -------------------------------------------
I still love her. After everything we have gone through I still do. I want to believe what I feel is true love, but she has so much doubt in me that I donít know if I can believe it. I wish she really knew what I feel so she could understand. I want her so badly. This feeling makes me think Iím just lusting after her. It makes me want to give up on her. If I give up though, she will say that I only proved her right and I donít really love her. I do love her though. But now it seems she is trying to push me away. I can only be pushed so far. I have limits Iím only human, although I donít want to be. I donít want to give her a limit. Does she really think I donít love her? Does she think I was lying? No, she just doesnít think I know what I want. She thinks I donít know what I feel. She thinks that this emotion is something other than what I think it is. She is killing me. But if she does end up killing me I wonít care. I would rather be killed by her than anyone else in the world. But even if things turn out perfect and this emotion is love we still wont be able to be together. She just doesnít believe we can. She believes there are too many things stopping us but I donít see them. Iím so confused I donít know what to do. I wish things could just be perfect but life isnít perfect. God, Iím only 15 and Iím talking about Love, a subject that I probably donít understand. I just donít know any more life is so confusing and hard. But He never said life would be easy. Now Iím just contradicting myself. Well Iíve been doing that through this whole write havenít I? Well ill just leave it at thatÖ..
okay well see im only fourteen ii think im in love. so you'll never know. but if a girl will do this to you and hurt you this bad why why would you want to be with her sometimes you just gotta let the ones you love go and see if they come back.
i know lifes hard and im kinda in the same situation just im the girl and shes got a boyfriend. i know i will never know excatly how you feel and i know you hurt. but always keep in mind she may believe you and doesnt want to becuase she doesnt want to get hurt again. she may just be saying she doesnt believe you to get you to PROOVE it or maybe she really DOESNT believe you. or maybe shes only saying she doesnt for her own protection.
try talking to her communication is the key to healthy relationship! xoxo Crazzy
I'm sorry about whats going on with this girl, it sounds like you realy care for her. I know what its like to be questioning something as huge as love at such a young age. I hope everything works out ok between you two.
If you don't want advice, don't read this. I never was very diplomatic.
It sounds like you care 'bout this girl which is fine and good but as you mentioned you're 15. Believe me even at 24 you don't know squat about love (yet you always learn a little on the way)... But you know that expression "if you love something set it free and if it doesn't come back, it was never meant to be". I know it is easier said than done but then you'll know either things will work out and you'll be happy or you'll be sad, you'll mourn but you'll be happy again later. Such is life...Ain't it a bitcH?