Honored am I for what this lifetime has taught me...how necessary it
is to know and understand how others suffer, love, and fear as I do.
How necessary it is to hold connection with others throughout the
various stages of ones life as we grow, develope and evolve.
It is difficult to allow my mind to use the words I need in order to
express the power of my feeling-but I sense that now is the time for
With gratitude for this lifetime, my existence again manifested
in this flesh, I am able to now find meaning when before I was unaware
of the need.
This ability to name what was gives meaning now to what was before
only overwhelming emotion denied and ran from.
Acknowledging something means naming it; naming something gives it
definition and from that-meaning.
Being present, through using the language to describe, this is the
developement of the meaning...after that, then the feeling, then the
acknowledgement, then the reaction.
Within the acknowledged meaning is action, either positive or
negative, destructive or healing, wasteful or balanced and sustaining.
There is meaning in knowing this.
Understanding now that everything has meaning, every word uttered,
every facial expression given, every tone and body language used-all
hold meaning and create impact.
Meaning is defined in unique ways be each individual who is responding
to it...so the very experience of meaning varies, but it still is what
it is-if it is acknowledged, defined and named.
Connection comes with sharing our collective expressions of
appreciation, feeling and experience with each other, validating and
recognizing each of our similarities and differences even in
Now again, I am grateful for the awareness that there is meaning found
in our connection to others, and that reasons found in simple dialogue
To understand the reasons allows us to discover the meaning in what
is...the reasons, the underlying causes, dynamics and influences all
bring about a deeper sense of meaning.
Acknowledging the true depth and impact of our existence here on Earth
gives the much needed sense of meaning and purpose for our individual
In this state of existence I was born into with a number already
defining who I was to certain limited degree, I found it impossible to
Through a time of continuous seemingly protective reaction, I remained
unconscious and unaware of this need for meaning.
The purpose is to find out what is meaningful, allow the
acknowledgement and shift in perspective, then to find out why there
is a lack of meaning and purpose among our brothers and sisters who
suffer worldwide under oppression and enslavement.
I am here, by my given right listening to solo piano music that is
demanding I allow myself to be soothed from the build up of angst.
It is speaking to me from the very core of intelligence; right now
this can and does mean everything to me.
Sitting in my doorway the sky is dark the wind is restless and
soothing as it reminds me of Maui's waves...meaning is made known to
All of the fear, frustration, anger, pain felt-gone.
A sense of meaning and purpose beyond my ability to name...depth of
appreciation I am determined to learn to express through my
living-fighting against this death...grief so present refusing to be
denied or ignored...and strength so there every time yet hardly ever
allowed to be acknowledged much less used.
Meaning in my perspective now on how this could be, who I am, why this
is, what is the wisest action for me, for her, for us.
Meaning in what I allow myself to become attached to and owned by.
Meaning in understanding the reasons why some must question
information we are instructed to accept and support.
Meaning in respecting and acknowledging our instincts and ancient knowing.
For all of this I am grateful.