Everything I thought I knew about love was wiped away yesterday when one of my friends told me I knew nothing about love because I haven't had the experience of being in love. You have no idea how much this made me think. It's true I've never been in love and apparently I don't have the credentials to tell whether I'm in love with Byron or not.
Although I'm gay I believe anybody can fall in love with anyone. I can honestly say I've been in love with grown fond of a person of the opposite sex (Sorry, I forgot I've never experienced that.) However, since I don't look for women it would be very rare for me to 'grow fond of' one again. That's still not the point I'm trying to make though.
I basically talk the talk, but don't walk the walk. I've read the books, but I can't say I've experienced them for myself. I'm out on the market as a new, running hybrid full of new things and new experiences. But I couldn't help wonder
What's the difference between the new and used?
So, last night I was talking with Byron while watching Carrie Bradshaw finish up yet another great column. I suddenly had to blurt out the question:
"Do you like your significant other to be new or used?"
"Hmmmmmmm......that's a hard one. I'd have to say new though"
"Why?" Could he be sending me some kind of message?
"Because you can teach them things, like how to do certain things"
"That's interesting. So you like your guys straight from the factory, not recycled?"
"I like mine recycled. It shows that they've already learned things like how I have with you"
I guess at one point every person is a new product out on the market. Fresh meat for any buyer waiting for a new experience. The brand new product waiting to be used, just waiting. A lot of people that talk to me regularly are recylced pieces of well oiled machinery.
There was a difference between the new and the used, I just couldn't figure it out. It seemed my used friends were caught up in relationships all the time, while I was left in the dust. Again I couldn't help but wonder
"Am I simple? Answer honestly I need to know Byron."
"New, easy to get to. Simple to catch. An easy target?"
The more and more I thought about it, I was simple. I knew he sensed my frustration.
"No.....no, you're not simple. If anything you're complicated. You're not easy to figure out. It took me a really long time to actually understand you"
And that's where it hit me. I was simple, and I knew it. I didn't have any baggage, and Byron had so much. It was as if I was the new employee at a store, and he was the manager. I was new, he's been used. He's had so much experience, and I've had none at all.
That was it. Between the new and used people throughout our world, baggage is probably what affects what kind of people we are, and what we will become. It might hold us back from several opportunities, while throwing us into even more windows. But, between a relationship baggage is severely important. The new don't have baggage, or as much as the used. The used have baggage from past relationships.
So although I may not know anything about love, or being in love, I know now that there is a difference between the new and the used. Good Night and Good Luck.