"I miss us"
"I miss us too"
For all of the uninformed, Bryon and I broke up. I didn't really sink in until yesterday, though. I guess I had this extreme godly notion that when I ended up breaking up with someone I wouldn't feel anything, and I didn't at first. I wasn't until yesterday when I realized how much I missed him....
"Hey, I need to as you a question. All of my friends ask why you dumped me and I can never give them an answer. So.....why?"
"I never dumped you, we both agreed we were drifting apart"
What? Was I somehow misinformed? Didn't he say the words?
"But you said we should see other people"
So, I never got my answer, but I really didn't care. I was ready for what was about to happen next, and I knew it was coming.
"I feel bad for letting you go"
"You didn't let me go, I will always be here for you"
"No, I let us go"
The more I thought of it, the more horrible it became. Had he let go...........or had I? And if I had, why had I?
It seemed like Bryon was the perfect guy. He was sweet, kind, and cared deeply about me and anything I said. Although I've never had any other relationships I've seen what happens. It seemed like we had lost the passion, but that wasn't it. Nothing changed, and I need change to live. Was it true?
Can we no longer survive a relationship without drama?
"I still love you"
"I still love you too"
"When I start to date other guys again, I will always think of what we had"
"We still have it. I believe two people can be together, with love, just for the sake of wanting to be together. We don't have to be going out to love eachother. It only matters that we'll always be there for eachother"
This is where my break up had started to sink in, but I was completely unprepared for what happened next.
"When we were together...........I almost cheated on you"
I took absolutely no notice. The truth was that I really didn't care if Bryon had cheated on me. I had technically cheated on him, which is what I think probably broke us up. But, they say revenge is a dish best served cold, so why is he being so nice about it?
"Can I call you?"
When he picked up, I realized just how much I had missed his voice. Hearing it every night had adjusted, and you don't know what you've had until it's gone.
It didn't surprise me that we didn't talk like we used to, but it did surprise me when I cried for over and hour afrer he hung up.