Of All The Things I Could've Been
by Jason C. Clement
July 30th, 2006
© Jason C. Clement, 2006
Just some words
Thrown together as a poem
Useless thoughts and feelings
Help conceal the wounds I've never shown
I keep hoping someone'll see
And care enough to speak
But no one will ever see the man I am, behind my lies
It helps keep me lost, makes me weak
Memories turn to anger, a hatred for life
As the scars grow deeper still
I should've left the past behind
But I don't think I ever will
Love is hard to find, and part of me doesn't want love
But it's the emptiness inside that truly kills
And it's my soul that's bleeding
Maybe it's just the thrill
Blind to the world, and hidden in my lies
I stay confined inside myself
I couldn't care less what they think
'Cause I can't escape my self-induced hell
My friends have tried to help me
But all the things that they say
Are all the things I don't want to hear
And then they slip away, they slip away
And here I find myself
Staring at a photograph of you
My mind stops again, and my head starts to spin
I feel blissful, for only one moment
And I happen to grin
But then, it all hits me again
And there I am, back on my knees
Behind my wall of self denial
Won't someone make me bleed?
This is who I've always been
Won't someone help me see?
This is all I've ever seen
Won't someone take my heart?
I hate myself, and all I am
Won't someone help me start?
Or am I too damned
Won't someone stand by me?
Lonliness is all I've ever known
Won't someone cry for me
Hate is all I've ever shown
| Amazing Jason|
If I were you I would put a copyright on this because I swear to you this is that good
You have amazing talent for someone your age actually for anyone with lyrics!!!
I wish I could here this matched with music!!!
|| Posted on 2006-08-05 00:00:00 | by Ronswords | [ Reply to This ] || omigosh your so good.i love it.the reasons for writing a poem and your feelings were well laid out.im soo impressed.|
|| Posted on 2006-08-01 00:00:00 | by bbcherry | [ Reply to This ] || I really like it, but I couldn't find much to tie the title in. And this may not mean much to you, but something that appealed to me is this piece's flawless organization, and good grammar :S It's somewhat rare, and it does indeed make a difference. The main idea behind it, I think, is not extremely original, but the detail and layout makes it...fresher. Wish I could hear it, this site should have somewhere to put songs.||| Posted on 2006-08-02 00:00:00 | by Kunoichi | [ Reply to This ] || this was f*cking amazing, wow.....the way it felt like you took the thoughts right out of my mind.....*hugs* I feel bad though, you seem like a really great guy and I wish you hadn't had to go through this, I know what you mean though.....part of you knows some of it is your fault, that some people might care if you just let them in and allowed them to know...and that part of you hates yourself for not just dropping down that wall long enough to show them how you're really feeling, but then another part of you hates them for not seeing...for not paying attention- not caring enough to see how you're feeling without you having to say it, and then you start to decide in your mind that you hate yourself, so why should they care? why should it matter to them? and you end up just wanting some kind of reaction from someone...even if it's hate....great write, I wish I could hear it though, anyway you should hit me up sometime, I could see getting along with you;)|
peace and love,
|| Posted on 2006-08-03 00:00:00 | by silent_death12 | [ Reply to This ] |