"You know, we never said 'I love you'"
"Well, I love you"
"Awe, I love you too"
Unresolved feelings lead to grief most of the time, which is what I learned a week ago when Byron dumped me. Three days after our break up I received word he was cutting. Was I the cause? Apparently, I was. I couldn't understand why a week and a half long relationship could cause someone to do something so serious. I don't even want to think of what might happen when he gets into an actual serious relationship, is is dumped by his significant other! Suicide? Temptaion.
I really tried to get him to stop, I truly did. I ended up basically just telling him he had to either stop or I wasn't going to speak to him again. Of course, he didn't stop, we were broken up, I didn't really matter anymore to him. He didn't trust me.
I did end up giving him the link to this blog, which is my reasoning for not writing in a week. I know nobody reads, but this is some of my best writing. He found out all the lies I had told him, and now he doesn't trust me, probably never will. He even told me it was a mistake that I gave him the link to it. But, it seemed like the right thing to do. Isn't the truth important to a relationship?
In a relationship, is honesty really the best policy?
In a relationship, or in life for that matter, secrets have to be kept, and I have a secret that I won't let Byron know yet.
I found someone else. Ironically just as far away as Byron, Mason is wonderful. Believe me, I'm not getting into the same kind of relationship as I did with Byron. Mason, I have been totally honest with him, on every single thing we've talked about. It's as if the truth brought us closer. I just can't see anything wrong with him, he's so.........genuinely perfect.
"I want you to want me to be your everything"
My heart nearly melted, another insta-crush...
"That's good because that's exactly what I want"
"That's from a song"
Wow, forever embarassed, I had to make up for it, but how?
He must've sensed my embarassment, before I could take the shame back he had to melt my heart again.
"I think I'm falling for you, and that's from no song"
Of course I had to say the wrong thing
"I feel the same way"
I mean, what's up with that? I feel the same way. Was I afraid to tell him I was falling in love with him? Was I afriad it was too soon? Wasn't our relationship supposed to be based on honesty? I should've but I just wasn't ready yet, afriad we would turn out to be like Byron and Dan.
"I miss your voice, can I call you?"
He calls me perfection, but he doesn't see my flaws. The sweetest guy in the world, Mason. Our first talk on the phone, the previous night was 6 hours long. That's 360 minutes, 21,600 seconds of pure joy.
I'm in love, and I really feel like I could spend the rest of my life with this one person, but what if we broke up?