Description: im really into someone right now and in the past i would be real quick to say oh i love you without even thinkin so ive learned and heres something to show u what it took for me to understand
I’ve been through a lot
Mistakes parented me and taught me how things are suppose to be
Heartbreaks nurtured me
Tears became my best friends; each one
A different story behind it
My past is an advocate for my present
Love is a very common word
Used loosely in everyone’s vocabulary
That’s all it has become just another word
No, there has to be one other person that still believes there is more to it
The emotion lasts a lifetime
The heart aches from its rejection
The walls know I have said it more than often Just for the after affect
No meaning just barren words
Leading to a world of false hopes
Filled with wishes and dreams
Just to be shun out from the true meaning
I forced myself to believe it was true
I actually felt love, but
For some reason there was something left out
Standing at my window one night
I looked on into nothing
Listening to the silence, I miss her
She was the mold to love’s very existence
Left now with a battered self conscience
Feeling guilty to
I administered the same fate
Learning was an experience that left me cold
A pupil to emotions
A diligent watchman to its teachers
Reluctant to undergo its harsh backlash
Though it can’t keep me from loving again
She is sitting right in front of me whilst I write and doesn’t know
My true feelings hesitant but will grow
I know I will truly love
Love is a tricky word. Yes, there are so many common uses for it, I love chocolate, my husband loves potato chips but we are so in love with each other it's embarassing. It takes awhile to find the lasting love, the eturnal type of love and one step is finding out that maybe love means just a little bit more. Sounds like you had a pretty hard fall but you made it, and life goes on, changing and rearanging itself daily. And now, maybe this time, you'll be wiser, not pushing yourself so much into your love's face but letting yourself be known, like a scent in the wind. I like coming of age writings, call me nostalgic. I think this writing could use a few word changes just to make it a flow a little easier, small nit-picky things: "how things are suppose to be" maybe could be shorted to "how things should be" it saves on sylables. I remember my 10th grade eng. teacher saying something like...(who can really remember that far back?) say what you mean, use the words you need to use, conserve, you will pay for them someday. And, maybe you should re-read what you post before you hit the submit button. I know it's hard sometimes, but don't be in such a hurry, you have your lifetime to get it done...("Just to be shun out from the true meaning" maybe should be "...shut out..." or perhaps "shunned from true meaning..." Maybe, just a thought.) Stay cool, thanks for sharing...Az
Submission Name: Love's Pupil
