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    dots Submission Name: Tug-A-Wardots

    Author: jackz
    ASL Info:    24/F/OH
    Elite Ratio:    3.76 - 591/623/381
    Words: 606
    Class/Type: Poetry/Depressed
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       I wrote this at 3:30am not really able to sleep although very tired. Alot is going through my mind. This is my first recent poem I've wrong in a long time. As you can see its about family my Mother,Father and Step Father... Please let me know what you think.. .what I can improve on. And yes I know I over use a few words but nothing else seemed to fit.. I just kind of wrote whatever came to mind. Well thankx to those who comment I do appericate it

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    Pulled from all directions
    That could be possibly thought of
    And in one of these directions
    Is the person who gave birth to me?
    Who has been in my life since the day I was born
    And until now…
    My 18th birthday…
    But she was also the one
    To put me in a situation that was not safe
    Knowing this she still sold the house
    That was having a hard time selling as it was
    Knowing the harmful environment
    She still felt it was necessary for her and her daughter
    To Leave, To Go!
    Then in a completely opposite direction
    Is the person who rarely seems to appear?
    Yet when he does it forever leaves an impression on me.
    For this guy, who seems to show up only when needed?
    Is my father and forever he will be.
    I forever longed for that relation
    And it felt as if the more I longed for it
    The less it seemed as if it were going to happen…
    Longed to have a father there
    To have that figure in my life…
    I did…I mean I do
    In yet another direction
    Is a person who shows his love in all the wrong ways?
    Feels that certain things are okay
    But it is blunt that his actions are wrong
    This person who seems to show their love in the wrong way…
    Is and forever will be my step father.
    Although I have forgiven him
    For his wrongful ways of showing his undying love for me
    The hurt… the pain is and always will be there
    I longed for a relation I did and will not have with my father
    And a man comes into my Mother’s life
    Able to give me a chance to trust, love, and confide in…
    Only to BETRAY me
    to BACK STAB me
    To take away what I did not even have yet!
    Although I was able to see it... I was in reach of that relation...
    Yet it was pulled away from me..
    And for years and years to come I will be keeping it in
    From one direction I am pulled dying for her daughter’s attention
    Longing to have the relation with her daughter, that in return her daughter only wants from her father…
    Simply because he does not want her!
    Forever I will remember my Mother’s attempts to get close with me
    Although she did and will never success in them
    Then in another direction
    I am pulled in by his wrongful yet meaningful actions…
    Its one thing when a person knows other’s actions are wrong and the person making these actions do not realize they are wrong.
    Yet its another thing when you tell them their actions are wrong but they seem to try to find justification for their actions... as if they know they are wrong but simply digging … searching for an excuse
    And it’s another thing when you love the person yet
    You have a passion of hatred built up for them… because their actions have made you … who you are today.
    And who’s to say… what kind of person you would be
    If it weren’t for his blunt mistakes
    Forever I will remember my Step Father...
    Not because he was there for me
    Not because he filled that empty hole in my hart that my Father left me with
    And not because I was able to have the relation I was so longing for
    But because of the choices he made
    Will forever affect me and my life

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    ||| Comments |||
      Your step father knew what he was doing was wrong. When you added to this and told him. His excuses were a way of trying to justify it, but it is who he is and you nor the penial system will ever be able to change that. You said in another piece that his daughter ran away. Was it because of the same reasons you put him in prison?
    I understand forgiving him. But not for him for you. So you can heal some and move past that jail he put you in.
    And if your mother knew I' m sorry but that make yer just as criminal. She was supposed to protect you first above all else.
    And the last thing I can say is you say your father was only there when needed. Time is a funny thing and when we long for time in someones life and don't get it sometimes it grays the other things they give us. HE could have only been there when convienant and not when needed.

    One day at a time it does get better if you give it time to heal. Forgiving is the first step in that and you seem to know you need to forgive, for you and you alone.

    Keep writing! It helps!
    | Posted on 2009-07-05 00:00:00 | by trynfinity | [ Reply to This ]
      I agree with Dean, this is very emotional. I can't relate to it, but I can tell you that I liked it and usually I don't like reading long poems. But this was so deep, I couldn't take my eyes off it. You did a great job at describing your situation and putting your readers in your place. I could picture everything, and although some of it was a little sad, I very much enjoyed reading it. This was a very powerful write.

    | Posted on 2006-09-15 00:00:00 | by PiperH | [ Reply to This ]
      Very well thought out poem, alot of emotion in it, you really lay out your feelings when you write and that is great I trry to do the same in my poems, better on paper than held in forever, keep writing it makes everything easier to deal with, and don't worry things will improve with time, only time can help heal some wounds, thanks for sharing with us, Dean
    | Posted on 2006-08-23 00:00:00 | by Survivor_Dean | [ Reply to This ]
      "Able to give me a chance to trust, love, and confide in…
    Only to betray me to back stab me"

    That is a really powerful line!

    I can really get in touch with this poem.


    Try not to let it get to you I have been in the same sitution as yourself. It passes by

    Maddy <3
    | Posted on 2006-08-20 00:00:00 | by welshgirlmaddy | [ Reply to This ]

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