This is beautiful. The one thing I have been learning this year that related alittle to this, is that putting up walls because of heartbreak in the past, won't get you anywhere in the future. "I lived in vain And died in pain"-what a powerful line. I like your style.
i think everyone fears this, wonders "will i be remembered,will i be loved, or alone?"
you have touched on something very human, very natural and that we can all relate to
you seem to have a great talent for making the most common and human things about us as a species and making it something more, something interesting and funny and sweet and something that can draw sympathy or laughs with the flick of a switch
you are a many splendored and talented writer and i look forward to seeing more
That is my number one fear...death before completion. And my terms of completion are a family, with children, and pure happiness. I fear of being alone as well. Yet, at the time I am settling ok. It's only as bad as one makes it out to be.....yet, there is nothing wrong with that longing for another.
I feel that we should all put guards up to protect us from harm. Internal harm is much worse then external harm.
Sad thing.....when we put up these guards they tend to allow us to be too over protective of ourselves. And we ourselves, can be the one that is giving ourself a lonely destiny.