i have this feeling so deep inside
it sometimes hurts and makes me cry
i watch the things closest to my heart
float on by on clouds so dark
clouds of rain they fill my eyes
i began to feel blind
lost inside this darkened hole
on my knees clawing at the wall
maybe my emotions race too fast
like cars on tracks or rubber on glass
i sometimes climb inside myself
hoping no one will find me lost
i climb so fast that i fall to the ground
little tears roll down my cheeks
i explode and anger peaks
punching walls:broken knuckles,
bloody fingers, swollen hands
there are no calming smiles here
there are no big bear hugs
the only calming things are tears
and bloody images in mirrors
those little things i've always feared |