It's weird how we are stuck most on the people who want us least, isn't it? It seems like that, at least.... I know what this is saying, it's like there is a whole world out there and people think you just don't realize it, and the saddest truth is that you DO realize it, and all you want is what/who is familiar, which is usually the person who wants you the least... But remember, they usually don't want you until you're not wanting them, then it reverses... know what I'm saying? Anyway, good luck with this, and you wrote it well... you said exactly how it feels.