There comes a point in time
When no longer do you understand
You feel so frightened,
Feel as if you’ve lost your mind.

You sit around and begin to wonder,
“How long till I fuck this up,
When will it all disappear again.”

Life is a very confusing thing.
You spend each day trying to do your best.
And yet at the end of each day, you feel like shit.
As if every thing you had done, was meaningless.

You begin to question,
“Why am I here?”
And it goes unanswered.
Until it gets to the point,
Where you no longer can wait.

Just when you think you are at your wit’s end,
And this life you can no longer stand,
You see a shadow in the distance.
You go to it.
You implore it, to answer the question you’ve long to know.

At first the shadow is quiet, as if in a ponderous state of mind.
Than it answers, and you believe everything in life will be easier.
You were wrong.

“To understand”

That was all the shadow muttered before vanishing into the wind.
To understand is a big request of human beings.
One should not be asked to understand why they were left alone,
Why life continues to be extinguished all around us,
Why no matter the effort shown, the heart is bound to be broken.
Whither it be by death, or by will.

Love is a questionable thing.
It makes us question everything around us.
Ponderous thoughts begin to feel like home.

Often has it been pondered, when a love is lost,
Where will I go?
What will I do?
I am nothing without that person, why live.

A person that leaves you by will,
Never loved you, just used you.
A person that leaves by death,
Never truly leaves and you will be with them again.

There is no real point to this.
Just to answer the life long question.
“Why am I here?”



“To understand pains of all kinds. No matter how big or little each pain is to each person just as painful as the next. How we deal with it defines who we are as a person. Some deal with it by long stories of pain written on their skin. Others cry rivers to drown themselves. And some show nothing at all. They keep it locked away in a bottle that they lay on top of the shattered pieces of their dreams. Each way defines you. The question left is how will you help someone redefine themselves when they have gone astray.”