How does one define one's worth?
Can you validate your existence by the fact that one single person cares for you above all others?
Why do people around me seem to see a good person, a talented carpenter, an intelligent human, when they look at me?
I cannot see it.
Robert Burns said it best, "O that God the gift to give us, to see ourselves as others see us."
Sometimes I question my worth.
Perhaps it is caused by the raising of a father for whom nothing I do is ever good enough.
Why can I work for someone else and receive much adulation and praise, yet I work for him and get only negativity?
Just once, I would like to hear "Good job, son!"
Is that so much to ask?
I think that's why I crave the approval and friendship of everyone I come in contact with. That can't be healthy.
I guess that is the way life is meant to be, you can't please all of the people all of the time.
I would like to though.............
Actually if I could just MEET and, dare I dream, exceed my father's expectations once, I would be happy.
I love you anyway, Dad
Your eldest son,