It seems to me that there are moments you want to never forget, that go away so easily. The ones that you try so hard to let go of, always seem to have a tighter grasp. I too have a past I'd rather not mention, but it haunts me just as yours seems to as I read this. I'm not the type to speak of my problems or express my feelings about my past, so I hold alot of praise for your strength in dealing with those things and being able to come out with it. So far, with the poems that I have read of yours, you seem to be able to show yourself quite willingly, and you always do such a great job with your words. More than just your words, but yourself as a person, as a writer, you're truly inspiring.
(By the way, I don't mean to sound so corny lol, it's just my thoughts as pure as I know how to say them.)