Today, something within me broke,
I felt the splinters stab inside.
It may have been my heart,
But then, why haven't I cried?
This cold feeling of detachment,
Like a shield between the pain.
Separates me from reality,
Numbs the hunger to be insane.
Oh, but insanity is such bliss,
With frenzied euphoric dreams.
Silent haven of nothingness,
Where I cannot hear my screams.
I'm concealing the pain from myself,
Locked up safe, and yet it expands.
I feel it growing like it's alive,
But no one outside understands.
I remember my other self,
Indifferent, reclusive, but free.
She let lunacy run unchecked,
I’d forgotten what she’s like to be.
Hurry; lock me up inside the cage,
Keep the hunger from breaking through.
I fantasize about the bloodshed,
And just maybe my dreams will come true.
I cannot hold onto my sanity,
And I wonder if I should even try.
I miss the comfortable darkness,
Thus, I bid you a sweet good-bye.
I withdraw now into myself; heartsick,
To an eerie, familiar state of being.
I'm tired of hiding behind smiles,
Today, it's myself that I am freeing.