Your song
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And she was my best friend. But it was meant to end. And i think i'll write a song for her. And i might just add music. Cuz i want her to know. I don't want games anymore. All she does is tell me she wants to be friends. But her and her friends laugh at me. But i dont know guys. She writes on her website that she misses me and still wants to be friends. But im sick of saying goodbye. She thinks im always gonna be there when she feels like talking to me. and it hurt. I was going out with this guy and she was flirting with him and texting him behind my back. i was at a social and i was looking for him. and i swear the moment i turned around was like slow mo. And i saw them. With each other. Then i broke up with him. And she promised she wouldnt go out with him. And she did. She did. And this happened four times until this last time. They were going out like guys she;s thirteen and he;s like 17. SICK! and now she's like i broke up with him and now u and i can be friends. but she back stabbed me dude. That ain't gonna happen again. And sides. This guy is a manipulative bastard. he did awful things to me treated me like i was shit and beneath him one minute but then the next he would suck up to me sooo much. And now i dont talk to him for obvious reasons. And shes going out with him. Well was. And wen we were friends. she promised she wouldnt go out with him. but she did. and man it hurts. Cuz we were like sisters. Like my reason adds have been about her. And i dont actually cry. I cry on the inside. And it hurts. and i can't explain it. But he was abusive. and i cant talk to him otherwise he will see that as an open door and attack me. and man i went through some serious councelling after him. I had problems with eating. Problems with self esteem. Cutting myself. And almost had depression. And sometimes i dont think people actually understand how hard this has been. my whole life i have never had a friend i can trust. And i thought this was it. i thought this was my friend. my whole life even wen i was little i've always been different. no one wants to be friends with me. and all i want to do is cry. but i cant. i have to be strong. and people turn and tell me im pathetic!!! and i know this is a description for a poem but it is. and i dont want to think about her. and i dont want to write anymore about her. but i cant talk about her to other people. cuz they dont wanna hear it. cuz no one really cares. and it's soooo hard. and i sound like a whining teenager. but my parents are overseas and my brother is at a different boarding school and i just wish i was a boy sometimes so i could be with someone that i knew liked me. But i can't help but sometimes think no one likes me. And i don't need head messing people. especially like her. im sick of it. and i am and this song is for her. and litterally guys everyone lives for her. everyone writes a poem for her. everyone sings a song for her everyone does everything for her. but i just. don't want her to say she wants to be friends if she doesnt. and im going in different directions and so is she. I cant explain this to her cuz she just wont understand. and i feel like this should never have started cuz its my fault this happend. its always my fault. and i just want to die... so badly. like given the option right this minute i would cuz i just cant anymore... i cant be this person. its a cheap way out. but i didnt say i would. i said i wanted to. and i cant get wat i want. so no one ask me what i want. cuz u wont like the answer. and u really dont want me to get wat i want. and to a certain extent for everyone elses well being neither do i. Basically i miss what was with her. and im sooo not over this. not even close. and i dont think i ever will be.
Your song
I’m standing below your window It’s four am and it’s raining hard outside And I can’t take this anymore Cuz all I do is cry on the inside And I just don’t understand How exactly we ended up like this All I know is we were best friends And all I do now is reminisce And the truth is It’s hard to say goodbye And if we’re gonna say goodbye Make this the last time I’m sick of crying I’m sick of lying And saying I’m fine When I’m hurting on the inside Cuz all I do is cry And all I do is cry And cry Over you And if I could I would I would retrace all the steps I took And everyone says it’s not my fault But I can’t help it when you give me that look I bet you think it’s funny Cuz all I can hear is you laughing at me I can’t bear to look at you I’m afraid of what I’ll see And the truth is It’s hard to say goodbye And if we’re gonna say goodbye Make this the last time I’m sick of crying I’m sick of lying And saying I’m fine When I’m hurting on the inside Cuz all I do is cry And all I do is cry And cry Over you Well I’m sad this time, Cuz I think this is the real good-bye But at least I know now That no matter what happens, I’ll be alright And the truth is It’s hard to say goodbye (it’s so hard) And if we’re gonna say goodbye (say goodbye) Make this the last time (last time) I’m sick of crying (crying) I’m sick of lying (lying) And saying I’m fine (cuz I’m not fine) When I’m hurting on the inside (and it’s killing me on the inside) Cuz all I do is cry Cry and cry and cry And all I do is cry Cry and cry and cry And cry Over you And that’s all I do Is cry over you (you) Ohhhhh…. (Please please please please please) And the truth is It’s hard to say goodbye And if we’re gonna say goodbye Make this the last time I’m sick of crying I’m sick of lying And saying I’m fine When I’m hurting on the inside Cuz all I do is cry And all I do is cry And cry Over you |
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i have been there and felt that pain and i know how you feel its a good poem and so tru that when you lose someone you love after some time you begin to tire of crying and of hurting and eventually you give up. dont eva give up darl because there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. and you will always have your friends like me!!! x's and o's| | Posted on 2006-10-16 00:00:00 | by Shark06 | [ Reply to This ] | I know exactly how you feel. I'm not just saying it for my health either. I have always been the quite one in my friends. I feel unbelievably lonely sometimes. All my friends are all loud manipulating and all seem to be in a compotion with one another. I hate it unbelievably. I have only one out of the five of my closest friends. Sometimes she can even back stab me sometimes. They've gotten better over the years though. I dont care as much of what people think and I try not to hold myself back from fear of them. Your friend sounds like my frined "DAnica". SHe's always back stabbed me and she made my grade school years a living hell. She still is a back stabber and an ADHD beauty queen. I've always been jealous of her and the attention she gets from everyone. Because of her I developed anorexia nervosa, but that was a while ago and now im over all of it. | SArahE.P. P.S. dont put yuorself down because you want something that you can never be. When you can except yourself people will truelly see who you are and know that you are REAL. NOt some drama queen back stabber. Everyone needs someone who they can trust. I'm that kind of person and my friends know that I'm always their for them even if there is no one who is here for me. It hurts but i dont think it will be this way forever. >>this is bit cheezy but here's a saying from my theology class="with out hope, nothing will change" | Posted on 2006-10-11 00:00:00 | by SarahE.P. | [ Reply to This ] | |
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