every step forward, I'm losing my mind
trying to show my worth, but i'm confusing the blind...
It's the same old me, but I'm new in this time.....
Never live up to potential, but I'm like this times two in my prime...
this is just time for my think tank
no longer confined to the shrink tape...
helllo, goodbye, with the shake of a hand
relationships, don't know what it takes as a man
Every turn is wrong, head on to another catastrophe
generated mistakes, not all in a black hat an tee
Not every song I sing, is that of despair
just understand the circumstances, this is fair
I've already gone crazy, and done came back
lost and found my mind, I should come claim that
but back to reality, after insane called
a suicide solution, just to make the pain halt
take every dirty look, with a grain of salt
Patronizing glances, from the outskirts of town
a little paranoia, just tired of being jerked around
I'm Self aware; so I'm only vain the mirror
I don't hold myself back, I blame it on the pain and the fears
a differant sad song, but I'm cryin the same tears
I've always hated where I've been, since I came here
note to myself, listen to your instincts plain an clear
tired of this, and it being my bottle of pills
i'm all choked up, I swallowed my fill