I slice myself and bleed -------------------------------------------
I pick up the razor
and slice my arm
shallowly, because
I don't want to damage any main
cables, just make mommy and daddy fret.
there is
a thin red scar
coagultainfg in the
friskilating
lamp, clap on
clap off
the clapper.
Mom bought it for me at the mall
the last time I wrote
"Anarchy" on my chest
with a pen knife.
My parents hate me
they don't beat me
they feed me
steak
and potatos
and pretend to worry
about me as they
drive to work in
their Mercedes Benz'
grinding away inside
their glass towers.
College was rough
but it made them rich
and selfish.
I have it rough
so I cut myself open
and bleed.
I hope they notice me.
but not like Jenny's parent's notice her.
Her dad drinks
then inserts his penis into her mouth
while she is trying to sleep.
Her mom joy pops meth
and sleeps with her boyfriends
when she brings them home.
Funny,
Jenny doesn't cut herself.
I guess the ones with the real scars
the ones who know true
sickness
the ones who really despair
never do
not on the outside
anyway.
HEY
ARE YOU PAYING ATTENTION
TO ME!!!!!
I'm not about to start bashing you just because I'm a cutter and you don't agree as such. I even agree that some people use it for attention. They tend to be the people who wear short sleeved shirts showing new cuts, or oh so obviously hold their arm to their chest. And yes, there will always be some who make it so obvious. However there are others who don't. Those are the ones who in real life people don't know about. Or if they do it took them years to find out. And the:
'Her dad drinks
then inserts his penis into her mouth
while she is trying to sleep.
...
Funny,
Jenny doesn't cut herself.'
I am the Jenny, and I do cut myself. I have several friends who annoy me by showing new cuts off to anyone who's eyes are open. But not everyone is like that. For some, perhaps even the majority, there is a real reason, and very real pain. Maybe there are worse things that could happen, but I know for me, all I have is my knife. I've lost everything else, including my freedom. My friends don't know. My mother doesn't know. So perhaps, just perhaps, there are cases when attention isn't all that matters, and it's more about trying desperately to cope with some pain inside, some situation that you are completely out of your depth in, in the only way you know.
As I said, I don't mean any offense, the poem is good, and sheds a light on a taboo subject that not many peope dare to say...ehich is strange considering todays values of freedom of speech. It's well written, and well debated...i just happen to hold a slighly different point of view.
i really like this piece. i agree with MmR... it's like your saying what everyone wants to say, but never does... for fear of upsetting the "cutters"
in this piece you speak A LOT of truth on the subject. most of these teen cutters, only think they have it bad, when infact there are people out there going through much worse... who dont mutilate themselves. i myself believe that it's about attention... like you said. their mommy and daddy arent giving them enough good attention, so they are willing to settle for any attention... good or bad...
maybe all cutters arent like this, but all of the ones i've seen are. and you said it perfectly there. the imagery you used to tell this little story... almost a debate on paper (cyber paper that is) was supurb. i hope to see more stuff like this. in different forms ofcourse... simply because people need to relise that there are much worse things that could be happening to them.
i LOVE this twist on the whole cutting scene. the first two lines i'm thinkin ya ya ya bla bla bla...then you just turn it around like it seems to secretly bleed..."i dont want to really hurt myself, i just want you to Think I do" and i loooove how you ended this...it's all about you, you selfish little boy or girl.
i'm surprised you haven't gotten any bad feedbacks from cutters yet...and i'm not about to start the bashing for them..i love smartassiness, especially about subjects people seem to be afraid to speak their mind about...
*claps*
oh, and sorry if me clapping just turned out your lights
Submission Name: I slice myself and bleed
