Apologies From a Daughter -------------------------------------------
Darkness over came the Light, and the moon over came the sun. Its so easy to close your eyes and pretend the chaos is over. Its so easy to just close your eyes and pretend to run. Instead of you telling me how much of a mess up I am. Life is getting colder.
Typing this down as I am pushed deeper into the ground. I wish I was perfect so you can stop making me feel this way. I loved u and I still do. Sorry I can't be your ideal daughter. Sorry I can't be so smart like her...Yet. you don't even know her.
Is this the only way I can show my feelings and emotions. Turn up my music loud. Head bang and pretend life is just great living under your roof. Draw smiles on my face and hold on to the loud sound.
I know you love me. But I mess up so much. I wish I could scream ... cus I don't even see any love between this family. You try to shut me away from the people that have helped me more than you have. Isn't that just sad? You don't even know my life? But I don't care anymore. Wishing I could die..... That wont help.
Excellent. From the depth of your heart. It must be the same feeling for millions who don't know how to express it as you did. You seem to be lot more mature than your expressed age; because your analytical mind touches the essence of the problem.