I wouldn't think this is a suicidal poem lol. But this poem does have a lot of dark meaning to it. And I love it! I love it! I definatly love it! Have you ever looked into the mirror you see your faults you see your error, great metaphore to speak about looking at yourself in a pesimisc way. I like that line alot as it gathers all of the hateful things about the views in oneself. And then the line that you think so much you crumble. The human emotion and human mind can be a mixture of a deadly weapon of oneself. Im sorry for the feelings that you had to create such a work of art. Lonliness can cause such pain and so can self-image of oneself, and you definatly showed this inside of your writing. And the one I can greatly relate to was the fight to sleep. Depression sucks, it sucks, it just sucks lol. Especially when it causes us to stay awake for the enitre night with our deadly thoughts danceing inside of your head. Keep writing because you have talent.