Description: For this man I speak of.. I long to say so much to talk of so much but I feel as if I am letting go of all I have held onto I feel as if I am allowing my self to get hurt as if i'm asking for such thing. because in the end thats all that happends once you allow someone into your life.
To This Man -------------------------------------------
I long to tell this man my life story
I long to have his hands caress my body
To heal the several scars I have endured throughout this life I have and am living
I desire to engage myself into converstation with him, of my life.
Although my desires are powerfull
My remorse is inevitable
For I can not escape these feelings of loss
I feel as if I have betrayed no one but myself
When these desires of speaking of my life to this man
And when I act upon them
Feelings of defeat overwhel me
As if I am allowing all I've ever held onto go!
For I cannot engage in such actions, and if I ever temtped to
I need to shoot them down
... The attempts to speak of my past of my life
I have an obligation to myself to over throw these efforts of getting close with me.
oh i can relate. i just recently had a breakup and i started yelling at myself for letting him get so close to me. i mean i told this kid the world. he knows EVERYTHING about me. thank God we just got back together though, cause i gave my all to him. every bit of my heart, trust, and emotions i poured into this relationship. it's kinda hard not to do that when you love someone so much though. good work. </3 lisa