Through His Eyes...(in memory of) by Postillion

The very first time I opened my eyes
I saw their image I did not know why

There were people standing all around
I had a strange feeling as they passed me around
Then suddenly I began to cry
Then I felt the warmth and strength of his body next to mine
As he cradled me
I gazed into his eyes
This man loved me I felt it deep inside

I heard his voice as he spoke to his wife
They talked about me most of the night
I was their first son
A junior to be
They had already pictured me grown
An the man I would be

Then the man looked at his wife said,"I LOVE YOU" an kissed her goodnight
He looked at me with a tear in his eye
I once again felt his love deep inside

I don't know why it happened
But it changed there lives
A lung infection
That might claim my life

They told my mom
It broke her heart
She felt all alone an cried most of the night
She called my dad
He awoke with a start
He answered the phone and those same words crushed his heart

They wept together for my life
They did not understand what happened that night

I thought about my sisters
That I would never see
They will never get to play with hold or kiss me
They will never dress me up or get a chance to see me spit up
We will never feel each others touch
We will never see each other grow up

Most of all my thoughts are with my mom There is a special closeness
A secret bond
From the very beginning she carried and cared for me
Deep within her body she gave life to me
Then as I began to grow
I pushed her insides to places they should not go
I made her uncomfortable for a long time
But she shared her life with mine

I became very happy and excited you see
Because pretty soon I would get to see,this woman who loved me "MY MOMMY" an she would get to see me

As the time grew near
I began to fear
About the birth and her sacrifice so dear

The days went by it seemed like years
They stuck poked and operated on me
But you made me feel good
Because you always beside me stood

I remember the day that afternoon
My dad said,"unhook him,take out the needles and tubes"

I was quit excited as odd as it may seem
I just wanted you to hold me
To feel your touch
Your warmth
Your skin
An share that closeness all over again

Mom
"I Love You","I will miss you"
But
"I will always be with you"

My dad held me close to his chest
As we sat in that room waiting for my death
He looked at me with tears in his eyes
I could feel his love deep inside

I would be leaving pretty soon
I could feel my dads love consuming the room
I wish I could have told him
"Dad I Love You"

My body trembled all over
As I drew my last breath
You stayed there and held me after my death

Mom and Dad
"I Love You","You did your best"