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    dots Submission Name: perfectivity?dots

    Author: lauren hamill
    ASL Info:    24/f/can't say really.
    Elite Ratio:    3.51 - 52/30/14
    Words: 406
    Class/Type: Poetry/Love
    Total Views: 643
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       oh, you know, about my life. :)

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    Who am I to you?
    A mirror image of myself
    I am not.

    I listened carefully.
    I read in between the lines.

    I laughed on cu.e
    Straightened my lips with a flash of a wink,
    Sat up straight, and drank from my pinky cup.

    I did not drink
    I did not smoke
    I did not cuss.
    I was the perfect combination of everything I thought you’d want.

    And why.
    Unintentionally, I did this to you.
    I mislead you before I made you
    To believe before
    I was ever ok
    With all the things that possess me.

    Your passion was surprising.
    I wasn’t ready for such force.
    The bruises on my breasts
    Bring chills down my spine and warmth
    In between my legs.

    I thought this would be easy
    This kind of love.
    What is it, really?
    You don’t know me.

    As I light my first cigarette in a week
    And drink the first beer in two
    I prepare for your visit tonight.

    You will see me cringe
    Under the unflattering
    Fluorescent light.

    Squirming, I will squirm
    In front of your eyes. As you
    Pass your judgments and call
    It a night. You will not see
    The beauty in my flaws,
    In the ugliness I possess. For
    My beauty was much more intoxicating
    To you. God I saw right through
    You, I knew what you were about how
    Happy this all made you
    And I played, I played this
    Game of adult charades.

    It is over now.
    Come say good-bye.
    To the girl you loved from far away,
    The girl you loved with the crease of your smile.
    She is no more real than the bulge between your thighs.
    I am sorry. I wish I was
    What you thought I should be.
    But, really, do you want that kind of perfectivity?
    My ugliness is real and dangerous and can turn
    Any living, breathing man to stone. Because they
    Know I am fucked up much more than I care
    To admit, much more than I will ever
    Let on. I am the picture-perfect of
    Whatever, whomever, you’d like me to be.
    I do it flawlessly, with no mistakes.
    I’ve become so good at covering myself up
    That the layers are too thick to ever
    Peel off,
    Chipping paint on that old window sill,
    My heart longs for that acceptance only
    I can bring.

    Submitted on 2006-11-22 20:37:56     Terms of Service / Copyright Rules
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    ||| Comments |||
      very good... the transition was well done... from good girl to something else...
    | Posted on 2006-11-30 00:00:00 | by Katana Ryoko | [ Reply to This ]
      Everyone is fucced up in their own way. I enjoyed this and just dropped by to let you. Welcome to the site.

    | Posted on 2006-11-23 00:00:00 | by fryte | [ Reply to This ]
      Wow...that is good. It is LONG.
    | Posted on 2006-11-22 00:00:00 | by Desolate_beauty | [ Reply to This ]

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