Why Did You Go?
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Why Did You Go?
I can’t bear to look at your pictures… Without asking myself… Over and over again… Why did you go? I don’t know if I am sad or mad… Or maybe I am both. Tim… I remember growing up with you… The days at the beach… You were but a baby then… The days by the cane fields… In the hot and humid sun… We’d climb your dad’s mango trees… And scrape and skin our knees… Life was just simple then I know… But I have these memories And I can’t let them go. Perhaps you didn’t remember the fun we used to have… I can’t look at your poems… Because each time I do I cry… And I will forever wonder if that was truly you… I can’t understand what pain forced you to forget The people that love you… I can’t understand in what moment of selfishness You decided that the world… No longer needed you. I can’t understand why you let go, why you gave up… Why did you go? My mom keeps your pictures But for now I cannot look… I can barely look at the sky… Or the beautiful mountains… Its summer and the mango trees are full again… The beach with its salty air… Reminds me of you… I hear the laughter of children… As they play in the sun… All of these things… Remind me of how things used to be… And I wonder where I lost you… At what point did you go. I don’t want to remember As the years went by… What happened to you? Was your smile fake? Was there a hollow empty echo in your laugh? Something I did not detect? Why did you do it? Did I get to busy with my life? Did you try and tell me in the things you never said? All of these questions swirl round in my head. I want to look at your pictures… And be able to see what they all see… Our dear sweet beautiful Tim… A warm and loving memory… But I can’t. Your smile was so warm and sunny… And I keep wondering if it was all a lie… And in those smiling photos… Were you planning how to die? You see now my life is filled with questions… Questions that have no answers… And no matter how much time goes by There’ll never be an answer… I may as well laugh into the wind. I miss you… Why did you go? |
Submitted on 2006-11-23 21:26:51 Terms of Service / Copyright Rules
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| a friend lost to suicide? very hard to deal with... especially so young... its very emotional and it clearly conveys your sadness Katana | Posted on 2006-11-30 00:00:00 | by Katana Ryoko | [ Reply to This ] | I'm sorry you lost your friend | I also loved this it seem so touching I reminds of my mother inlaw | Posted on 2006-11-23 00:00:00 | by littlepoet | [ Reply to This ] | |
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