She wakes around midnight,the midmorning hours,
screaming for someone to help her,to please just help her...
"Suddenly my ears fill with screams and I sit up in bed..."
Pixie... God Dammit,not now!
I rushed to her room and pushed open the door,
sitting there staring wide eyed in the dark
clinging,clutching,holding on to no one but herself...
Oh Pixie,why now?
I stepped closer and tried to unwrap her arms
but she tightened her grip and started to shake.
Dammit Pixie,not now!
Suddenly she turned her fearfilled eyes to me
she scratched,struggled and fought against my arms
She pulled free and scrambled to a corner
still clinging to no one but herself....
Her convulsions grew wilder and she opened her mouth
but nothing came out and fear flooded her face
She reached out to me but something pulled her back
her body shook and she screamed at me to leave...
I just crumbled to the floor and watched her go through it again,
as she does almost every night when they haunt her sleep.
I wanted to help her but she wouldn't let me touch her
she just sat there crying till she couldn't cry anymore...
Dammit Pixie,why now?!