~!!~ I Won't Tell ~!!~ by Dramaqueen

I won’t tell

As I lay in the bed where life proceeds and death has a way of getting what’s needed. I envision the only thing that keeps me sane my Lord Jesus Christ. I was brought to life as I lay in that bed as was I killed. I brought to life hatred and killed all pride as I lay weak from fight’ in the battle of you on top of me. I close my eyes and say what else the devil can do to me! Tears roll from my eyes cus stop and no aren't enough and he isn't listen’ in anymore, as he touches me his hands are as cold as his heart I zone out hoping it will end soon. I want to scream but why scream, I want to die but why give him the satisfaction of my death, and I want to kill him but why disobey god's commandments. You look me in my eyes and still sho no amount of compassion. My heart doesn't belong to you neither does my body please let me be free I won't tell! The inside of me wanted to jump from the tallest building I can find but my mind took control and life for those couple of minutes had no meaning. Jus let me be free I won't tell! As you finish, you climbed off of me asking what I will say to ppl as far as this my words couldn't explain how bad you have did me; rape couldn't even begin to describe what you have jus done to me. Shaking, cold, and tears couldn't comfort my stupidity so I grab what little life I have left in me and walk away asking why couldn't he have jus let me be free.................... walking home had no lights, had no streets, had no sidewalk, it was jus a lonely space through time in which I traveled to I reached a long missed destination of freedom. He finally physically set me free but emotionally and spiritually he'll always own me. But I can't tell, I won't tell, Why couldn't he have jus set me free.................................... This morning there was a smile stuck on my face and a new day was started I looked beautiful. Depression, frustration, wordiness, blankness, left me feeling tainted and repainted of an image I grew to love to hate, because this morning I made sure I would never tell cus my funeral was today and it gave me the freedom I longed for................. I won't tell..........
~*~ Drama Queen ~*~