I've been dragged into this hollow place
i can't recognize this world i face
whisper kiss touch alone
dwelling on experiences i've never known
i am the hermit in this shell limiter
castle defense at it's consentient perimeter
deflects every trespasser
friend or treacher
where self-reflection became self-destruction
full-blown self desecration
knit-picking at my own fault of being faulted
drowning in the fear of forever being unwanted
complacent abortment
throat stomach muscle contortment
awakening in self pity
addicted to unconformity
youth defected
lies expended
every girl i loved rejected
unkissed, unwanted
fervor long desponded
overshadowed haunted
every apple every eye
every time i want to die
without a pill
without a drink
be i long decayed i think
and all my years i've watched, alone
all of them fell for a desultory clone
whatever, i think, made me care
makes me wish it were never there
occasionally wishing i was someone different
an island desperately trying to drain it's sediment
of all this built up desecration
has left me breathless |
Submission Name: Despondency
