Description: it's the verrrry first draft, essentially the first thoughts that popped into my head and flew out my pen and then happened to be typed up here so i may get some advice on the flow and how to lessen the percievedly choppy rhythm
Given Words, I Would -------------------------------------------
If I could redeem myself through words I would
If words were medals to be earned, that could restore dishonor
If syllables could count the steps it will take
To reach the pedestal, where all look up towards
Then I would write till the wounds bleed ink and fingers break
If I could heal my lies through truth I would
But the excuses have dried up like rose petals and blown away
Traveling on streets Iíll never drive
On paths that lead to the peace for which we pray
But the stories crumble and decay
At an altar my religion will deny
If I could pray for deliverance, I would
If the opium of the masses became the miracle drug
If prayers were wishes that had to be answered
Faith would present an offer of salvation
But the fervent prayers that keep me from soothing dreams
Are the prayers that wonít rise past my head
The wishes end in bitter screams
If I could wish to be saved, I would
On blazing memories falling from the infinity above
But we wish on shooting stars because they fade
As fleeting as the lingerings of broken love
I wish I could strengthen on my own
But I can only fade into escape
And salvation ends up salvaging alone
If given words, if given chances
If given hands that could turn back time
If there was a hope that would keep living
If immortality was offered for a price
I would not let myself die
I would give back one more try
I could not agree more with what Jen has said in her comment. I like what you have written a lot, but i too believe that God answers prayers when we chose to live life for him, i have experienced it for myself. and also with that decision made he will never give us more than we can handle....as he has said. thank you so much for writing this though i think its really good.
Wow...I really liked this. Excellent job on first thoughts, my friend. You show a lot of talent for someone so young (not that I can really speak that much, I'm only two years older ).
The first line drew me in instantly, because anyone who writes would jump at the chance to redeem themselves through their words.
"Then I would write till the wounds bleed ink and fingers break"
I love that line, it paints such a vivid image. We've all done so many wrong things that we would love to undo it, whatever it takes.
I also really enjoyed the second stanza. I wish I wasn't nearly as impulsive as I am, because there is no taking back words once they are spoken. The hurt, the guilt, the loss, still remains long after the lie has left your lips.
"But the excuses have dried up like rose petals and blown away"
That's a wonderful image, I got the mental image of an excuse leaping from your lips only to crumble into a worthless pile of dust. You have excellent imagery and word usage.
There seems to be an under-lying sadness and guilt that pervades the entire piece. Its like you've done things wrong, and life has done wrong to you, but you have no idea how to change it, how to stop it. The line:
" If prayers were wishes that had to be answered Faith would present an offer of salvation"
That truly saddened me, because Faith is such a wonderful experience. Its so hard, because we often get the idea that if God really exists, He would bail us out of our problems and answer our every prayer the way we wish. But the thing is, God is GOD. He is omniscient, or knows everything. What we may think is best may be the worst thing that could happen. But the truth is all prayers will be futile without accepting Jesus into your heart...God offers us all His free gift of grace and love, and we turn it down because we think we know better. Once you realize Jesus died on the cross to take away your sins, and love you unconditionally, and help you deal with your burdens, its like you're set free from prison. There's this comfort, because you know He's in control. He's never going to give you more than you can handle, that's a promise He's given to all His children. One last bit of food for thought: even if you don't believe or accept what I just said, in very practical terms, how are you going to grow if you don't go through struggles? If our every prayer was answered and nothing ever went wrong in our life, what kind of character would that develop in us?
I don't mean to preach, its just my faith means sooo much to me, and I wish everyone could experience the joy and passion I feel in Christ. Your piece was lovely, and if you have anymore questions about what I said, I'm always here to talk.
I have always been a bad speller so have tried to lessen the importance of words. I think this work struck a cord somewhere and I loved it. When you love someone the most annoying thing is you can only use words that have been used before. With one love we used "I love you 15 Cannon balls" tring to make saying I love you Fun. It did not work as the relationship did end!