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I know you don't mean to do the things you do.
I also know you don't like to do what you're asked to do.
Of all of that I still love you.
I can't seem to tell you how I feel lately,
Because you're always tired.
But you promised that you were going to do better with our son,
Lately it seems as you have slighten off.
Since you started trying to better by us by getting a job.
You barely even hold him.
I know that you be tired and you want to rest.
But it doesn't stop you from spending time with us.
I know you love me but you're not showing it.
I know you're fed up of coming to a junky room.
But I'm also fed up of looking at an angry man.
Whats love when you're always angry.
I know its not your fault that you can't controll your temper.
But its not my fault that my mother always did everything for me.
Love is suppose to be about our family.
Not just you and me.
You have to include our son in also.
Im not writing this to be rude.
Im writing you this to explain how I feel.
This is just a bunch of feelings put together.
I thought you said that we were going to get married one day.
But how when you're always angry.
I told this afternoon that I promise to have the room clean tomorrow.
But you looked at me like Im crazy.
I know you dont believe me.
I guess I have to prove you wrong.
What am I suppose to do.
Let my feelings build up
And end up hurting myself or you.
That is the last thing I want to end of doing.
I already told you about my life.
And you should understand the kind of life I had.
I really don't like to talk about it because I have been through a lot.
But I thought that you would understand.
Don't take this the wrong way.
This is just a bunch of feelings.
Or me expressing myself to you.
I hope you understand what I mean.
This is just a journal fulled with feelings.
And I am hoping that you would find it in your heart to accept the fact that you are a father now.
I Love You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
| this is really great, i think that communication is important in any relationship, and so i think you should tell him how it is that you feel. i dont know your situation personally, but i think that if you feel like your feelings are being smothered then you need to stand up for yourself and express them to him, maybe you do and these were just left over feelings, i dont know but the emotion was extremely evident in y our write, great job and welcome t the site i hope its as great to you as it has been to me. take care and if you ever need a friend leave me a msg......Joy||| Posted on 2006-12-29 00:00:00 | by sweet_rayne | [ Reply to This ] |