Iím pretty happy with how my life is. I mean, I donít have much to complain about. Good friends surround me, and the teachers here are amazing. Iím finally starting to positively deal with some experiences Iíve had in the last few months, and Iím becoming more solid in my faith. Iím gaining confidence and growing so much as a person. I know I donít always act as mature as I should, but I think most people like that about me. I do know when I should act my age. Iíve had a lot of guy problems, and Iím not sure if they were my fault, or if Iíve just been in bad situations. Itís been pretty difficult to keep a positive attitude about dating because of the things that have happened to me. Then I met you.
Iím not really sure why, but for some reason, you had an effect on me. I donít know why I picked you, but I did, and now I canít go back. To tell you the truth, I donít really want to. You have done something for me that Iíll probably never repay you for. You boosted my spirits, my confidence, and my happiness. I know I shouldnít depend on others for happiness, and I donít want to, but being around you makes me smile. I see you, and I smile, even knowing now that my chances with you are slim. You still have that effect on me even knowing that youíre sitting in your room thinking of her, I still canít help but think that maybe someday youíll sit in your room thinking of me. I know it might seem kind of childish the way Iím acting, but there is something different about you.
I know Iím not going to die if Iím not with you. That is okay. I know that I donít have to date someone right this instant. That is okay too. I just hope I have the patience to wait for my turn. I know weíre young, so Iím hoping in time that I will get my chance, because I think it could be good. Something comes over me when Iím around you, and it gives me all the confidence in the world. Iím not saying you are the one for me, but what I am saying is that you could be. Or you could not be, and we could just end up having a lot of fun figuring out more about ourselves together. Either way, I definitely think itís worth the wait to get a chance to see what would happen if the two of us got together. It just might be incredibly beautiful.