No matter how much I've gone through in life, I have never been so hurt. I've never cried so much that my eyes swelled up and turned purple.
Now I know how it feels to be broken- but I haven't been broken -yet.
I fear that I will do something I regret but will never have the chance to. I'll become a drug addict first since it's so easy to get.
I thought I had gone through my worst nightmare. I did. I just couldn't close my eyes. But when I woke up this morning I realized my life is just a continuation of it.
Looking back, I didn't appreciate and consider you as a person. I have to realize that you're not my angel that God sent down to me.
You know, last night I interlocked my fingers and again, cried in pain and pity.
Dear Father in Heaven,
I know you're next to me and know what I'm thinking- because I don't. Please hold my hand because my fingers are numb right now. Please answer my one prayer.
From your child.
In Jesus name,
I haven't brushed my teeth this morning because I don't think I'll smile ever again. . .