Swaying back and forth,
From one wall to another,
Trying to find the bed,
To crawl up in the cover.
One drink, two drinks, three,
The pain slowly faded.
I saw the bottom of the bottle,
Opened another as depression invaded.
I lost my will to move on,
Thought I'd drink away my sorrow,
Just to wake to the aching,
Just to feel the same way tomorrow.
I ruined what could have been,
I thought I'd made the right decision.
I was wrong, now my heart is broken,
Lacerated, bleeding, all self inflicted.
Playing, making believe,
Everyday I wear this mask.
I drink it up to forget,
I despise an empty flask.
My eyelids are heavy,
Thoughts misconstrued.
I'll sleep in torment now,
Lying alone, dreaming of you. |