I really like this piece ... I can somewhat relate to it with what I have been through in my life. Good luck on your gaining control from whatever problem you have been through and Im lookin forward to reading more of your poetry.
I especially enjoyed how you began with a sense of dispair, then moved to why, and then switched to being hopeful and ready to take control. It's a perfect story, it only leave the reader questioning specifics...but the whole story is there. Well done.
The first three stanzas spoke to the reader, and to the world; then the last two stanzas the focus switched, to yourself. This just enhanced the poem and it's meaing so much.
The last stanza was just so powerful, but so simply put.
"God grant me the will
to be strong and stay true
I know you will
my faith is in you"
It's almost a prayer within the poem, almost a seperate poem it self.
I enjoyed this very much, and I wish you the best of luck in your walk to take control...God will give you the will to stay strong and true.