I feel so abounded
My thoughts are gloomy
"There is no need for this"
Part of me says
"Your alone, tired scared... and hurt,
There is no need for such feelings"
Another part of me barks back.
See, I am stuck in this on going battle
Itís with no one but Me, Myself, and I
I'm playing tug-a-war with these thoughts..
Debating with myself
Whether I should be feeling this way
I long to be accepted
To be normal...
And I look for you
To give me these feelings
And yet I shall not allow myself
To look for such feelings in another
I shall not give another this amount of power
Yet I am and I have..
And here it goes again..
This inevitable game of "Tug-A-War"