Wishing that today would end,
But could never wish to leave
Understanding the way it was without
Knowing what will come
Demonise a faith to hide,
Your insecurities
Following a path
Of liars
Coldness of the night
Not letting in the wind
Darkness of the light
Illuminating
Tears, before a prayer to one,
Whom still resides below
Despair of what will be
Following
Curtsied to those standing tall
With unshed blown contempt
Described a life of constant war
Where not a blow was spent
And sought an interest in a course
A course where none shall go
To scream inside a raucous
Silence
Never was the future held
Nor history made through sight
Never shall the whole re-mend
While left is left and right is not
A thought can hold a million truths
And cast a thousand lies
So maybe front to back may
Be the way.
So, I read it twice...not sure I can tell you what I think you are talking about..but I will take a stab at it none the less, I think its an internal war, thats caused by things external, the maybe despise of the world and its view(s)..im not sure if I see satan in here..but I wonder because of the whole "prayer to the one below" bit im not sure if its a paradox because most people pray to "a god in heaven" or its a paradox in the sense that everything written in suppose to represent its opposite meaning, ...meaning that you were saying that you are prayer to the heavens when refering to the one below, (this may make no sense) the poem also seems to go into transcendentalism to me for some reason, I could be so far off base, it not even funny, (actually it is)..but I think I see a stuggle to find I wanna say unique-ness, but "the path untaken has yet to be built" and the truth is relative. (And just as I was beginning to pat myself on the back for my infinite wisdom (lol!) I got lost again, I think.) My favorite stanzas are the last 2, and you absolutely have to explain the last line to me, because despite the fact that I like it, Im not sure why.
In the first stanza 3rd line, if you debunked that "without" to the next line, it would make it easier to read, <I dont usually pick at these things, but it kept bothering me :) >