Description: My cheating boyrfriend got me into a lot of bad shit. and i tried to kill myself when he took my 14 years old, best friends, virginity, on valentines day. ^_^ how sweet yea? Thats what this is about.
Darkness Drugs, and Alcohol -------------------------------------------
Searching for a truth
Any reason to justify
What they said as true
Yet I'm running in circles
Everywhere I search I find
Darkness Drugs and Alcohol
Falling from their graces
Yet I just don't give a fuck anymore
I'll lie in his arms tonight
Stoned or drunk I'll smile
This brings me happiness
Darness drugs and alcohol
How many times have I done this
Do I care anymore?
Hes lying with her tonight
I'm in a pathetic denial
A voice whispers, screaming to me
Darkness drugs and alcohol
Leave me stranded forgotten abonded
Yet i'm still stretching out for his hand
He glows in the darkness....
I don't see her right behind him
Smiling wickedly as she watches me dying
Darkenss Drugs and Alcohol
A pool of blood a stained knife in hand
Hes running to me now, a fading memory
Darling your pleas to your god are just to late
Begging him not to take me won't stop this pain
And i can see her next to you...
My best friend smiling, she gave me my last dose of
Darkness drugs and alcohol
I think most have us have been at the point during a point in our lives... where we think nothing will ever get better. I recently got into some stuff i shouldn't have after my girlfriend of 3 years left me for a friend i had had for about 6 years.. it was just a horrible situation but things always get better. Enough about my personal life. Good write one comment though, the second time you repeat "Darkness Drugs and Alcohol" you wrote "Darness" just a little typo but i thought i'd let you know. Keep writing
Hey, reading your poem took me back to a nasty spot in my life too when I was 18. Is he your first love? That's how it happened for me, and I couldn't believe my world would ever knit itself back together after the agony of betrayal, but I'm 26 now, and grateful that I had those experiences so that it helped me decide what I would and wouldn't allow in my life again. It feels like it will hurt forever, and no one can lessen it for you, but hang in there.
The last half of the poem is the most effective I think. My particular favorite set of lines is "he glows in the darkness... I don't see her right behind him". It's like that, where the objects of our love seem like beacons, and we're oblivious to everything but them.
wow this was a real kick in the teeth for you and i'm sorry you got betrayed by those you cared the most for, but, it's happened to me my whole life so i understand how you feel. your words were very accurate here and it will make good sense to anyone who has ever attempted suicide. it was clear and right to the point and a good write with really good imagery! read my stuff, i've been where you are! it's not the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new world for you...so you take heart :)