Feeling so vulnerable
Every touch by you makes my body shake
Can't help but make a sound
Silence isn't an option
Every touch of your lips upon mine
Makes me want you more
Until i can't take it no more
And we kiss more passionately
Then a voice pops into my head
The same one every time
The one that stops us
And I lie saying I am "not ready"
It is the voice that say's
I am not perfect enough for you
My body is not right
I ask in a voice that breaks are rhythm
I have scares and fat
They are gross
And yet you say "I love every part of you"
I don't understand?
I am not perfect
Yes, self-hatred is the worst kind of hate. And I too well know the feeling of being faced with this situation. In all honesty though, even in perfection there is flaw, nothing is perfect, no one is perfect. From what I have read, you are definately worth more than that, and I am sure that that is what your boy friend sees. As hard as it might be for you, you should try to see it aswell.
There are some spelling and grammatical errors that should be fixed, it just helps with the flow and rythm, other than that it is well done, great job.
Self-hatred is the worse kind of hate. But I'm sure that you do love some things about yourself. Your boyfriend loves you for the inside not the out. He sees the real you. Perfection isn't all it's cracked up to be. Again there are some grammar mistakes but nothing a quick proof read couldn't fix :)
im right there with you. i love my boyfriend but hate myself. and he doesnt understand that. poeple never understand why other people hate themselves. i'll let you in on a secret. you may not be perfect, no one is. but you are worth it. you are worth everything and dont let anyone, not even that mean little voice in your head tell you different.