Could've told me herself. Didn't work for her.
Just when I thought things had calmed down,
That one word f***ed it all up.
Wasn't the greatest idea to go around looking where I wasn't invited; not anymore, at least.
Very unceremonious. She might as well have done it in front of a crowd, it's the distance that got in the way. The distance... gets in the way of everything. Every damn thing. The whole thing just brightened my past. But it's darkened my present and my future. If that's the price to pay, it's a price a little too steep.
Hell, if I didn't have a score to settle face to face, I wouldn't be alive right now.
What is moving on anyway? Moving on to something better? How do you move on? All for the best?
All a great big pile of putrid stinking shit.
Wish I never rose from the filth I started out in, or what I initially thought was filth. But I've come to understand that ignorance definitely is bliss.
There's so much going on I'm surprised I haven't exploded. So much going on and so little I can do about it.
Whatever happened to me being in charge of my own life?
I.. I've apologized once, a time when she claims to have loved me, but I do it again.
I'm sorry for the distance, even if I can't do anything about it. I'm sorry I started it. I'm sorry I brought you so far into this that you couldn't bail out without paining both of us.
But I can't forget you.