The voice that was once my world,
The musical notes of love,
That brought me back from the depths of doubt,
So many times...
Is no longer my haven,
No longer that same voice.
It's not even recognizable...
Not anymore.
The arms that caught me,
Time after time again,
The arms that caught me,
The one time it mattered most,
Haven't enclosed my body in far too long.
The hands that held mine,
In body and also in spirit,
When separated by thousands of miles,
No longer reach out for my love,
I don't even think they yearn for it...
Not anymore.
The love that kept us going for four years,
Of tears, and miles, and oceans, and wars,
Doesn't even seem to matter.
The love that powered what others deemed...
Impossible,
Conquered the whispers and the laughs,
And rose above all else,
For a Time. For a one great moment in time.
That love no longer seems worth it,
It's not even powerful enough to change minds,
Strong enough to endure, all that life throws.
But it was. But it was. But not...
Anymore.
That sparkle in my eye,
Standing there in that purple dress,
Or the smile that slowly formed,
Around the corners of your lips,
When you gently kissed my cheek,
The first hugs and endless kisses,
After months of being apart,
The whispered I love you's,
The touches in the middle of the night,
The smile that only you create,
And the feeling in my gut when I see your face,
Are all I carry with me, they are what I miss.
And they are what I tell myself to forget,
Because they are lost forever, they are not...
Anymore.
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