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My Cure

Author: drk_angl_17
ASL Info:    23/f/TN
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Its been two years and i still cant forget her. In the last stages of her cancer, i hated her for taking my life away, for making me take care of her. Nothing i ever did seemed good enough in her eyes. But then, I rarely ever did any good back then. I regret now that she could see my true potential take action whilst she still had the breath and the heart to whitness it. Im sorry. Some pain never goes away...

My Cure

I wish she could see
the person I've become.
All that I have done,
the person I've come to be.
She died too soon.
All she knew of me,
the only thing she saw,
my each and every sin;
the pain, the scars,
the blood, the tears,
spelled out 'pon my skin.
My mindset dark,
appearance rather morbid.
Hate was my biggest sin.
All her descrete talks;
the walking dead.
Like I didnt know
behind closed doors
that's what she said.
Her continuos curses,
all the pain she gave me,
stored and dwelled within my head.
On numerous occasions
I wished her dead.
Only now do I realize her motive.
She was pushing me
to become who I am today.
She saw my true potential,
who I would grow to be.
Only now she is gone,
taken away from this world
and she may never see
the product of her work,
how much she really helpd me.
It was only when
I watched her take
her very last breath
that I regreted my actions.
I thought I might break.
My only wish, the dream I cling to
is that she could come back,
if only for my sake.
Then she could see
the person she knew I'd make.
I just wish she knew,
her goading wasn't in vain.
Thanks for helping me be me...
I wish she could see
that her sickness, her fatality
was my life's cure.
Thanks for saving me.

I love you and Im sorry...

Rita May Holder
March 20, 2005 (a cpl weeks before my graduation)

...May your soul find the peace
that your illness consumed...

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  wow what a beautifully well written expression of emotion... I am sure that she knew of how much she meant to you

God Bless

Timmy S. Edgar
| Posted on 2008-10-07 00:00:00 | by Timmy S. Edgar | [ Reply to This ]
  Don't worry, Ella...I'm sure she sees the person that you have become and she is very proud. Don't think that just because she is gone from our plane that she is gone forever. I know that sounds weird but I believe she is still watching you. Love ya.
| Posted on 2008-06-10 00:00:00 | by alma-perdida | [ Reply to This ]
  a very sad and passionate piece of work u have written here...i hope that u may find comfort amongst ur friends and continue to write strong passionate poems such as heart goes out to you and her
| Posted on 2008-04-29 00:00:00 | by Twin_Snakes | [ Reply to This ]
  Very Strong and deeply personalwrite
My Mother is my Best Friend in the World and I cant imagine where I would be without her
I hope you realize she is alive and well in your Heart just waiting to Help you move forward
Dont beat yourself up to much I am Positive She knew how much you Loved her and She Loved you very much
God Bless

Please if you get a chance Please take a look at some of my writes and let me know what You think
Thank You
| Posted on 2007-09-04 00:00:00 | by Ronswords | [ Reply to This ]
  First let me say that I am deeply sorry for your loss. It's never easy to lose someone we care about especially if they're taken before they can see the fruits of their labor.
now, on to the poem:
there are really only 2 things I would change. In one line you truncate upon, the flow would be better if you wrote the word out entirely. The other thing is, although I understand keeping this line for rhyming purposes:
Hate was my biggest sin.
Because this poem seems to be a confession of sorts, I think you could expand this to make the poem stronger.
Well, there are my two cents. Hope it helps.
| Posted on 2007-09-04 00:00:00 | by bentnotbroken | [ Reply to This ]
  i really like your poem, sad but you can feel the pain and sorrow. even though you werent at your best stage in life while she was alive, she was there once too. nobody expects anybody to be perfect or stay the same. im sure she seen the potential in you. anyway, made a good poem ;)

Holy xx
| Posted on 2007-04-20 00:00:00 | by Holy Wood | [ Reply to This ]
  i remember you writing about her on your journals. im sure she knew that you would be a total kick ass person, that she knew you really would become that kind of person someday. this made me tear up a little bit, doesn't need anything because i think its from your heart adn people can't tell you to add this this and that blah blah and so forth, because if they did, they can go [censored] themselves.
| Posted on 2007-04-13 00:00:00 | by Rhaine | [ Reply to This ]
  this is really very sad. I think that it expresses what might be some deeper, more supressed emotions very well. It really sucks when mistakes from the past come back to haunt you, blowing regret into your face. I think that it takes time to overcome this kind of regret, it will come, believe me.

good write.
| Posted on 2007-04-11 00:00:00 | by itsjustme22 | [ Reply to This ]

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