the deja vu ive fucked up before -------------------------------------------
it is the same scenario all over again
i can see my life flashing before my eyes
streaking back to a time when
i was the one screwing up a happy couple
and i was the one who didnt think it over
and i was the one who didnt want the responsibility
i was the one who couldnt handle being serious
i was the one who couldnt love enough
and now i know that i deserve this
its all coming back
every word i said and every promise i couldnt keep
every promise i didnt even know i was making
its all slipping into my head like a cancer
blossoming out and settling in til it itches and all i can do is remember
every lie i told and every tear i cried when it was all said and done
i bet youre going to be sorry
because i was
but at least now i cant hate you because ive been there done that
and you didnt start it like me
you didnt want it like me
you only played it like me
so im still the bitch here
the cold glass bitch up high on a ledge surrounded by pushing hands
its all in my head
the mean words i said that couldnt be erased no matter how much i wanted to scoop them up and rip them into shreds til noone could see what they meant
and every time she said i let her down
youre letting me down now
slow and easy even though i deserve to be smashed
but its ok
ill break anyway
Ah wow. Really, really enjoyed this one. Something about the word choice, it really struck me. So open and plaintive, confessional almost. It's certainly relatable, I think there's a regret in everything. Really great write, though. Definitely a favorites addition.
Submission Name: the deja vu ive fucked up before
